Been a year plus since my last post in this blog. Baby Jared going to turn 8months in another week. Joel has gone to school & has grown mature each day. He can verbalise his needs & exploring different vocabulary.
Am on leave today. And I miss home. 4 years has been a breaking & yet an enriching moments.
Seldom have the time to stop & take inventory of my life - my thoughts life & feelings have not being put in place. It's chaotic & random, lost of who is really me? What makes me happy? What did I treasure most in life ?
A season & phase of life. It's all about family. Seeing Joel cried after being dropped off to school grieved my heart. Boys down with fever & lying on the bed - such helpless feeling. Feeling of inadequacy and imperfection. Love tank which has been empty for long.
So what? What keep me going? .. The love of the One who will never let me go. If He never let me go, why should I give up life?
